About Me
I was a woman who was totally turned off. A woman who gave all of herself until she had nothing left. A woman who invited relationships where she was the caretaker, and never cared for. I said “yes” when I meant “no” - to partners, to family, to friends, to strangers, to jobs, to moves across the country, to belief systems, to teachers, and more - and “no” when I meant “yes” - to dreams, opportunities, real love, sexual awakening, intimacy, vulnerability, growth, community, and LIFE. All my life, I’d been told that my inner compass was wrong, and almost all of my life, I believed this lie as a truth.
No more. I started meditating in 2013, and my awakening process began. Through practice and a good teachers, I quickly came to this earth-shattering conclusion: I was not my thoughts or emotions. There was a whole new terrain out there that I had not explored, and I was enthusiastic to dive in.
I meditated for years, and started teaching, too. My practice deepened and deepened, growing me, widening my capacity to open my heart, and creating a relationship between Me, Myself, and I that was tethered to love, worth, wholeness, and clarity. It was a beautiful journey. It changed everything I thought I knew about myself, the world, and whatever reality is. But something was missing.
That missing piece was embodiment. I had spent years deconstructing the shapes that made up “me”, pulling apart the threads to see just what was holding together all of my various personalities, preferences, biases, and “selves”, but I got to a point where I deeply needed to put them back together. I needed a through-line. I needed to tell the story instead of observing it; I needed to engage with my traumas instead of only being in the audience seat.
Embodiment grounded and energized me so that I could safely do this. It helped me move, breathe, and sound with what I was experiencing. It helped me feel it - really feel it. It quickly unclogged so much that was stuck, and connected me to my deepest “Yes”, and my absolute “No”s (and it gave me the power to claim them). No longer was my inner compass something to bypass; no longer did I look to others to know if I was taking the right step. I. KNEW.
I now know what works for me and what doesn’t because I, Hallalujah, am IN MY BODY and I LOVE MY BODY and I TRUST MY BODY. I trust my body to lead me in matters of work, sexuality, partnership, finances, family, friendship - you name it, my body knows. And your body knows, too. You just have to learn its language, and offer it your faith.
I pair embodiment and meditation together in my work because of this great dichotomy: As you wake up, you will realize that you are not your body, your mind, your heart, or your thoughts. You are infinite. You are so much more. And yet, to be a human is to have a body and a heart and a brain, and there is a wisdom there all its own. Your body is the keeper of your whole life’s story (and your ancestors’ stories, too). It is the pathway to feeling deeply, our tether to this earth, the thing that can teach us so much about who we are, what we desire, and what this life is actually about. So, if we are going to fully awaken, we have to deal with that sweet human side, too. We can’t just transcend.
Awaken with me. Awaken to YOUR inner compass, YOUR inner truth, YOUR inner knowing that is unique to you and you alone. No one else can do this for you - you have to find that wild, expansive, deeply pleasurable terrain on your own. Well, on your own, and also with support. And that’s where I come in - to support you. I want you to be a woman who is turned on to her life. I want you to be a woman who knows.
You ready to do this?
Let’s go.